Anxious

So I'm really anxious, have been for the past week and a half. We're meeting the birth mother in a little over a week, but the more I think about it, the less anxious I get. Our caseworker talked to her a few days ago and asked her how she was feeling about the adoption, and she said she was feeling really good about it. But what's really making me anxious is the birth father. He apparently doesn't want to place the baby for adoption. So this is a high risk adoption, and it's making me extremely anxious. I'm hoping and praying it all works out without any problems. I'm desperately hoping we'll be able to adopt this little baby. But I've been thinking, and it makes me sad that in order for us to have this joy in our lives, it's causing another heartache. I just wish everything could work out perfectly and happily for everyone. But then that's not the point of coming to earth, is it? We need these trials in our lives to test our faith and make us stronger. We need to prove that we're worthy and ready to live with our Heavenly Father again. It's just hard sometimes, isn't it?

~Candice